Reflection cont’d.

The relationship that you are in, or the one on its way, is a direct reflection of what resides inside of you.  Men bashing, women bashing.  It is a common occurence.  What we fail to acknowledge or admit, is that we have control and influence in the matter.  If it is not what you want, walk away.  If it continues to materialize, better yourself.  Timing has a lot to do with life, whether we embrace it or not.  So many times throughout my journey, I have fought and argued with timing.  I have always been someone who knows that I have the power to make anything happen, whether I live by that belief or not.  At the end of the day, I know that if I want it, I have the will and the abilities to make it happen.  So timing has been a very worthy adversary.  So many hours spent arguing with this elusive and unseen opponent.  I thought I knew best.  I wanted what I wanted when I wanted it.  I have come to make peace with Timing, although, almost always with a side of kicking and screaming.  What’s ironic, is that once Timing “gives in” and delivers that which I had so positively wanted according to His time, it never really tastes or feels the same.  I look at it almost confusedly.  I wrestle with myself tryin to remember why I had ever wanted it in the first place.  What I didn’t realize is that while I was busy wrestling with Timing, life went on and I evolved.  So as I stood there face to face with the object of my desire, I realized that it existed in the past with a “lesser” version of myself, and I had indeed moved  past it.  There will be times in all of our lives when there is something that we so desperately want, or believe we need, but there seems to be a mountain range standing between us…it is in that moment that we would be best served to breathe, to witness our life and the process of living, and just wait.  To continue walking, but to be a witness to our life, allowing ourselves to be changed by the process, having the faith that that which serves our highest self will eventually materialize.  It may be that we have something to learn before we are ready for our desire so that we can ultimately enjoy it and appreciate it more, or that it is not in our best interest and only time will reveal that to our wiser selves.  Be patient. Have faith.  Laugh. Love. Live.