balance

As I have said before, I have a tendency to exert force and make things happen.  Over the past few years, I have learned the value in letting things happen organically.  Now I am in the process of finding balance. I am realizing that life is the process of dancing and being danced.  I have made friends with peace, and I am learning from its wisdom.  I have learned that sometimes our expectations can limit our opportunities.   We can be so focused on what we want and believe we need, but fail to realize that timing is showing us a better way.  Sometimes something great falls apart to make room for something even better, and what appears to be rejection is just a bend in the road guiding us to bliss.  We only have a limited view of life.  There is so much more at work then we can even begin to realize.  Sometimes silence speaks the answer and stillness encompasses our power.  I strive to be and do many things, and often the striving leaves me weary.  In those moments when I can’t carry myself any further, the stillness whispers to let go, that God has something better for me than I can even imagine.  He can do more with my life if I just get out of my own way than I can ever force into reality.  I imagine Him sitting back and watching this boxing match where I am my own opponent.  Neither of us ever realizing that we are fighting our own essence, our own possibilities.  We are resisting the future and running from our past, or resisting our past and fighting our future.  We are afraid to let go of what might have been, and even more frightened of what could be.  We spend so much of our time fighting this illusory ghost, that we never stop to embrace ourselves, our grace, our potentiality.  We operate as frightened children afraid to trust our parents when we need to stop and learn to trust ourselves and cease to believe in the lower voices of our lesser selves.  There is nothing that we can’t do or be that is within our hearts.  We were all born with a realm of possibilities, a song in our heart.  A story- that to us is secretly so real, that we can taste it, feel it, live it-that we are too afraid to ever admit to anyone other than that place within ourselves, the knowing.  God created each of us down to every passion, dream, aptitude, hope, preference.  He knows what brings tears to our eyes, what makes our hearts soar, and if we only knew the power bestowed upon us, we would not waste one instant on doubt because we would be too busy bounding towards our quintessence, and inhabiting every moment of our lives fully and completely without the wasted efforts of striving or fearing.  “Every human being’s essential nature is perfect and faultless, but after years of immersion in the world we easily forget our roots and take on a counterfeit nature.”  Lao-tzu.  Why do we contribute to each others’ falseness?  You are doing no one a favor by trying to spare them heart ache or failure.  Instead, allow yourself to listen to that coveted yet hidden hope within another and encourage it, for the journey to claim our own joy produces that which we hope to find in the end of it all…ourselves.  And to share that journey with another is the greatest gift you can give and receive.  Joy. Hope. Passion. Fortuna.