The Ocean

I have always felt a pull from the ocean.  Hypnotic. Poetic. Spiritual. Passionate. Organic. Commanding. Reverent. Raw.  Baptizing. Refreshing. Cleansing. Daring. Majestic. PEACEFUL.  I was blessed to spend this weekend on the beach.  I grew up in Oregon, and as I got older, I used to flee to the beach to get away and think, to put my thoughts in order.  The beach in Oregon is so different from what you think of in Cali or MIA.  Its quiet, serene, gloomy yet mystical.  I used to just sit on the balcony and let everything take me over, becoming my surroundings.  My thoughts and emotions swallowed up and taken temporarily from me.  In the meantime, I would sit in the moment and appreciate its entirety.

As I woke up in the morning, I would walk out to the beach and breath it in, exhaling any worries or vulnerabilities.  The ocean healing me and empowering me.  No matter what is going on in your life, the ocean has a way of making it whole and okay.  I believe it was bestowed with that capability.  Those that I have met in Cali and Hawaii that live on the beach contain those powers within them as well.  They are vessels of peace and awareness and reverence for the moment.  They do not worry, nor do they hurry.  They know that all is well and all will take care of itself.  They live fully and completely.

At night, I sat on the beach, alone in the dark.  I let myself become entangled in the serenity.  You realize how small and powerless you are as the waves crash in and out of their own accord, to their own agenda, their own poetry.  Nothing you could say could change that.  Yet as you witness their dance, the ocean in turn bears witness to your being, and that recognition empowers and cleanses your soul.  I don’t know that there is anywhere closer to heaven than the ocean.  It is like the story of the leper touching God, knowing that it would make him whole.  I believe the ocean is infused with those powers.  It is where I go to find equilibrium, to find peace, to find wholeness.  Meaning.  Purpose. Surrender. Hope. Rest. Joy. Calm. Serenity. Tranquility.

Addiction, Compassion.

Addiction.  It is an ugly word that we use to describe trashy, out of control individuals who we think ourselves so much better than.  Sit, observe, and let your mind wander.  What could that woman or man have been like before the hands of addiction choked the life out of their neck, and took over their soul?  Do any of you put yourself in their shoes?  Some say “get a job,” “go away.”  I can’t help but think “there but by the grace of God go I.”  In reality, I didn’t create myself or my path.  I have the power to create the life that I want, but do any of you really know what the demon of addiction feels like?  It could be so many things…food, drugs, alcohol, sex, relationships, gambling.  It doesn’t matter what it is.  The pull is so real that escape seems like a fairly tale, unreal and futile.  It is the one thing that feels real, tangible.  When you are alone, it is there to console you, comfort you, sing to you.  Addiction is viewed with such disgust and disdain that it is something most are too afraid to speak of, to share, so it is a cross that we carry silently, hopelessly.  Do you ever wonder what the purpose of addiction is?  Why did God allow it into our lives?  What is the meaning?  I do know that I have often heard “for with God, nothing shall be impossible.”  But that promise seems elusive and not for the downtrodden, for you don’t feel worthy of such a promise, nor do you believe in its validity.  The only thing that is real in your life is the object of your addiction.  It can take the most talented and beautiful person and cut them at their knees, keeping them from walking, let alone dancing, never fulfilling the greatness that they were created for.  They are caught in a dance, and addiction is their constant companion.  It bothers me that the majority of people that I know are cold to those with great struggles such as these.  However, I guess I cannot be angry at their ignorance.  For how do we understand something that we do not know?  My life has been a series of beautiful disasters, silent burdens and blessings.  Often I have asked God why I have had to live all of these nightmares.  My life is far better than most of the world, my sufferings have been more of the silent, mental and emotional nature.  I am not perfect.  I carry scars, and there are things about me no one knows. However, I am grateful for every second, for they have allowed me to live it and know it.  I have so much love and respect for those who have suffered and come through the fire, and I understand the strength that they wear as a badge of honor.   I empathize and suffer with those who are in the fight, and can’t find their way out.  It is the most frightening place in the world.  In this place, you usually find yourself alone and addiction becomes your companion, your escape, your savior.  I have silently carried my struggles with a smile and a great deal of acting.  I have a lot of pride, and cannot admit my imperfections, my frailties.  I still won’t, but I mention them in hopes of awakening you to the fact that this world is in need of compassion and understanding.  Your problems aren’t the only problems.   I desire to remind  you that there are so many out there who are suffering and struggling-whether from addiction or tribulations.  Some are obvious, some you would never guess.  I challenge us all to do two things before we act with selfishness or superficiality.  Say to ourselves “there but by the grace of God go I,” and realize our fortune, and two remind ourselves that that individual may be carrying a cross or burden of which we have no idea.  Not everyone wears their weaknesses on their sleeves.  Give each other the benefit of the doubt.  Have compassion.  See the best in each other, and mirror that to others when they have forgotten that about themselves.  Bear each others burdens.  Think beyond our own trivial concerns.  Honor the spirit that resides within each other and is all connected, and treat everyone like we would treat our God because you never know where or who He may  be.  Peace. Love. Compassion. Grace. Understanding.

Ethiopia…and a million other places.

So I wrote a paper for one of my classes about our failure to feed global populations, and a cartoon about starving children in Ethiopia.  Please read on, for it is one of many great tragedies that we forget about, or turn a blind eye to.  I only strive to awaken you, as it has awakened me.  As always, thank you for your time.

Ethiopia:  Far From Utopia

“Tigray province in the high, remote North is the ancient spiritual home of Ethiopia, mesmerizing in its rugged, isolated, hard beauty” (“CBC News In depth: Ethiopia”).  This description of Ethiopia is tranquil, picturesque, and fanciful.  Although many of us would like to buy into this image, or bury our heads in the sand, the reality of Ethiopia will not align itself with our fantasies until we take a long, hard look at the nightmare which we allow them to continue living.  “On that first day, I glimpsed Ayano in the intensive care room, wrapped in a red and blue blanker, struggling to breathe, his eyes tipped back into his skull. When I next saw him, he was trussed up the blanket that had become his death shroud, lying on a slab next to two other small bundles in the morgue” (“Among the Starving in Ethiopia – TIME”).  Just to paint a picture and put things in perspective, as I read this article and come across this description of unimaginable heartbreak, I noticed an advertisement directly to the right of these spine chilling words.  It read:  “Breakthrough in reversing wrinkles and signs of aging.”  It is said that life in Ethiopia is cheap, but the haunting chants of the funeral wails would testify otherwise.  Next time you look in the mirror and agonize over your newest wrinkle or gray hair, think beyond yourself and your aesthetic to these innocent, helpless children being stalked by vultures and tossed into ditches.

In Cam Cardow’s syndicated cartoon “Ethiopia,” he sheds light onto the tragedy that is the situation in Ethiopia, which could easily be entitled Niger, Sudan, the Democratic Republic of Congo, Uganda, Malawi, Zimbabwe, or increasingly countless others.  He employs the use of logos, ethos, and pathos persuasions to speak to the heart, mind, or conscious of anyone who encounters his work.  There is a picture of a starving, gaunt child with sunken in features, looking the reader in the eyes and thinking, “If I wait long enough, the media will eventually arrive” (Cardrow 457).  Maybe it is because the media has been here before, and they are over it, but there is a lack of media attention.  There is certainly enough to focus on with the war, oil prices, and Lindsey Lohan’s newest debaucheries.  They justify that there is a lack of grave pictures depicting the horrors, however, it would be disgusting and disgraceful to wait until there are images of children being stalked by vultures, which there is, before they take action.  This portion of the cartoon is employing ethos, the ethical residence within us.  Cardrow is appealing to us by pointing out that these children are helpless, defenseless, and at our mercy, and they are.

The second frame shows that same child, in the same state, but this time thinking, “and expose one of the worst famines to hit Ethiopia” (Cardrow 457).  Again, the media has been there before, dating back to 1980 when there was much hype over this still existing tragedy.  The problem is that nothing has changed.  “The reasons are paved in the good intentions of rich nations, good deeds that have punished Ethiopia with perpetual want” (“Among the Starving in Ethiopia – TIME”).    In all areas of life, Americans are treating the symptoms rather than addressing and fixing the problem; take a pill and it will go away, shut off the alarm and deal with it later.  We are giving these tiny creations of God a miniscule fish, and then going home to our warm beds and flat screens rather than taking the time and efforts to teach them to fish and care for themselves.  I cannot quit asking myself why.  People everywhere are starving, our environment is ailing, and our health is laughable.  We are creating more and more sophisticated and interesting gadgets, but we are also creating our own destruction.  There is a Grand Canyon between Education and Intelligence.  We are more educated and technological yet our egos run our lives and our society.  There is so much that we could do to help those crying out for us, yet we continue to pacify our consciouses by throwing a bone, never taking the time to truly create a revolution.  We are willing to do anything, as long as it is convenient, does not make us uncomfortable, or interrupt our highly important lives.  “Hundreds of millions are spent on immediate food relief because the popular notion is to alleviate the plight of starving children.  But that means little is spent on economic development to prevent the shortages that led to hunger in the first place” (“Among the Starving in Ethiopia – TIME”).  Cardrow is appealing to our logic (logos) by addressing the absurdity of the hamster wheel.  Nothing has changed since 1980, it is obviously time to get off the wheel, and actually fix the problem.  It makes sense, so what stops us, what are we waiting for?

The third frame shows the same child, this time staring blankly ahead, no longer acknowledging the reader’s presence, with the caption “Yep, should be along any minute now” (Cardrow 457).  This child still clinging to a shred of hope has no other option, yet our silence speaks volumes.  The fourth frame shows the same picture, but no caption.  The fifth, the child is lying down on his side, with his back to us—hopeless, awaiting his fate.  The last, the child is a skeleton—without any sense of loss or recognition from us, his “savior.”  Cardrow is speaking to our pathos, our character.  America is a beautiful institution, we are the Utopia that everyone else strives for and dreams about.  We truly do have it in our power to change the world.  We could stop funding wars, and start advocating and creating peace.  We could focus even more efforts on the causes, and bleed less money into the pharmaceutical companies and healthcare system that turns its back on the “weak” and “powerless”—the unaccounted, unimportant, unrecognized.  We can take our beautiful technologies and discoveries and implement them in these suffering countries, supplying them with the means to feed them for a lifetime rather than a moment.

As I glance at the advertisement for reversing wrinkles, I read further, becoming humbled by the words from a survivor from the Ethiopian famine in 1984; the girl whom reporters were talking about when they said, “I noticed her slumping to the pavement and called a nurse but it seemed too late…We left, to at least allow her dignity in death. Her grave was already being dug outside, alongside thousands of other victims” (“CBC News In depth: Ethiopia”).  Birhan , now known as the “miracle girl” from the Great 1984 Famine gratefully stated,” I barely survived death but I came through.  And today when I see so many beautiful things, I’m grateful to be alive.  Always I say I could have been just dust by now, but I’m not.  I’m alive to see beauty around me, and to see new things.  I’m very happy” (“CBC News In depth: Ethiopia”).  We should be affected by this.  “There, but by the grace of God go I.”  If Birhan can be grateful for something that none of us could even imagine, then we have a lot to learn, and can begin by taking action for those who are waiting for our mercy, our brothers and sisters.

Tragedies beyond borders

“There is nothing more powerful than an idea whose time has come,” Victor Hugo.  It is time, can you feel it?  We are sophisticated, industrialized, baptized in technology.  We have more ways to communicate than we can even handle, we have advanced solutions to disease and degeneration, and our gadgets practically run themselves.  We have overcome civil wars and slavery, come far in the establishment of equal rights, and come together in the face of the incomprehensible tragedies of September 11th.  The time is past due to begin recognizing our interconnectedness as human beings, as equals.  We cannot move forward as a nation or a species until we begin to take responsibility for our actions.  The ends cannot justify the means.

It is impossible to comprehend the atrocities that go on behind the scenes all in favor of oil production, control and power.  We extract large levels of oil from countries like Venezuela yet we give them no compensation.  Oil spills have killed their food supply, their animals, their lands, and we have done nothing to help.  We are going about our business turning a blind eye and a cold shoulder.  How do we justify allowing people to suffer in this manner?  We play patriot games and big brother by waging war in other countries all in the “defense of the weak,” yet we allow these other tragedies to go on without the slightest concern.  It makes me wonder what our priorities really are.  We exploit the masses that are illiterate and lacking influence, who believe that they have no control over the situation.  When speaking out, they are beaten and shot at, or ignored and lied to.  They have an external locus of control, they believe that the world is so strong and they are helpless.  “This is all related to the cult of oil” (Margonelli 149).  We barely give it a thought beyond whether we want the Pepsi Big Gulp and Corn Nuts or Rock Star and Doritos.

How are the citizens supposed to take control or speak out for their rights when they are being ruled by a puppet master?  They are seen as livestock and property, their tragedies just collateral damage.  It does not matter that they live on cliffs in cardboard boxes having to throw their waste over the cliffs while their children starve to death—as the saying goes, all if fair in love and war, and oil right?  Their “faith in the system is so great, and so tragically unfulfilled, that it is almost a religion” (Margonelli 169).  What has this system done for them?  What have we done for them?  There is more to life than Gucci, Apple and Hummers.

When are we going to have respect for each other and that which sustains us?  Just because our past is riddled with the need and obsession for power without regard to the damage done in the pursuit of it, does not mean that we cannot shift our focus.  We can cease valuing the ivory tower without concern for our human obligation.  There will be an initial investment, but the rewards will pay dividends.  We are one of the most privileged nations yet our national level of happiness is dismal.  Maybe we would experience a shift if we were to make efforts to help other nations experience a higher standard of living, teaching them to fish rather than throwing them a bone here and there.  We are accountable for the miscarried and deformed children, the sick, the dying and the hungry.  We have the means to make significant changes in the lives of many, bothwithin our own borders and beyond.  “Violence attracts violence, peace attracts peace.”  This came out of the mouth of one of the citizens in Nigeria.  With their lack of resources and formal education, this man had more wisdom and true intelligence than the majority of our citizens.  I strive to think and live according to the knowledge of this man.  We all should.  Adopt awareness, inspire action.  Be the change.

Tears

Cleansing, purging, release. Letting go, opening up.  Walking away, hanging on.  Losing, winning.  Risk…fly or fall.  Excitment, despair.  Tragedy, Miracles.  Hope, Fear.  Pain…poetic and attoning.  Scary beginnings, tragic endings, farewells, goodbyes.  Exciting adventures, connecting, witnessing, transcending.  Walking away, being left behind.  Being fought for, fighting for something.  Regrets, disappointments, what could have beens, why nots?  Moments of hypnotic silence and pure bliss.  Tears give witness to so many moments in our lives.  They signify life at its purest moments stripped of all the chaotic superficialities.  Sometimes we see our lives as a series of events, but miss out on the beauty born in these moments.  Moments of what it means to live.  Losing something represents a saying goodbye to the object you are losing in addition to who you were before it left.  Loss represents a new infinity of possibilities and potentiality.  You die to who you were everytime your life takes a turn, giving birth to who you will be come.  Sometimes letting go and walking away is the most powerful thing you can do.  When you walk away, you show yourself that you deserve better rather than stick around to engage in a fruitless battle.  Opening up, hanging on.  There is nothing more beautiful and exciting than a new connection.  The end game is not significant in this moment.  You are allowing yourself to be shaped by another human being with infinite characteristics and intricacies.  Connecting on a soul level is such a beautiful part of the journey…its like taking a break from the travels to simply dance in the rain, living life fully and completely, surrendering to the moment, the joy, the passion, the fire.  Risk…fly or fall.  Our spirits are at their highest forms of creating when we allow ourselves to take a risk.  There is so much beauty and vitality in both the fall and the flight.  These are actions of living, choices to partake, to participate-raw without fear or desiring to control.  The outcome doesn’t matter because the risk is all there is, it is the reason for living and breathing.  It is the teacher and the lesson.  For without it, we cannot come to know ourselves, who we can become, what we can recover from.  The leap is a baptism into the world and the act of living rather than the passive accidental being.  Sometimese being brought to our knees delivers us to our thrones.  It is from there that we are able to see the possibilities, the realities, we can see beyond seeing.  It is often our darkest moments that are teaching us and shaping us, delivering us stronger, better, deeper, and more adept to extract joy and ecstacy, inspired and affected.  Tears are sacred, they are necessary and they are beautiful.  Be a witness to yourself in these moments and extract the underlying grace and beauty that you are in the midst of adopting.  Tears are our teachers, our witness, our rawness.  Beginnings, Ends, Moments of sacredness.  Life is not an accident, it is a creation, live it as such–Be a painter, paint your story and live the canvas.

Namaste…

Namaste is a sanskrit word meaning “the light within me recognizes the light within you.”  It is a form of respect, endearment, reverence.  It is what I wish mattered more in our society, and not just within the walls of my yoga studio.  It is the highest level of connection that we can have with another, whether it be a close friend, or a random, fleeting encounter.  Because you are coming from a place of love and respect, you are coming from a place within yourself that honors and respects the sacredness of another, free from judgement.  It doesn’t matter how similar or different they are from you, you honor all of it.  You honor another for not only their strengths, but for their weaknesses as well.  It creates compassion within you, and emmanates out embracing those whose paths you cross.  You become a vessel of peace, of compassion, of light.  I have thought a lot lately about yoga, about the term namaste, about the way we treat others in life.  It saddens me that so many people employ agendas, “protect us from the truth,” tell us what we want to hear, say one thing and do another, there is no accountability or consideration.  I am an optimist.  I believe in the goodness of others.  I am also a realist.  I have lived through a lot, and it has all changed me.  Those who know me, know that it is my greatest desire to be a good friend.  I often fall short, and I have beautiful friends who help pick me up and allow me the chance to continually do better as I grow.  I try with all of my heart to be good to others, and in all things, I love.  I love those who have hurt me, those who have wronged me, those who had disrespected me.  But it saddens me.  I am an open book, what you see is what you get.  I care for others deeply and passionately.  If you are within my circle, you are my family.  When people choose to hurt you and disrespect you without any sweat off their back, it saddens me-not for me because I have the ability to bounce back and move on.  I have too much beauty in my life to cry over anything less, it just saddens me that there is an existence of people who have no problem hurting and not embracing the light within themselves, or in you.  We have much to learn from yoga and many of its enlightened teachers.  What would our world be like if its leaders practiced this art of devotion and of love and respect.  “The whole universe is inside you.  Ask all from yourself.”  Rumi The light within me recognizes, honors and cherishes the light that is within you.  There is nothing that you can’t do or be in this world.  In all things, come from a place of love.  First for yourself, and then pass that light and peace onto others.  We need more of this in the world.  Our society is ripe for enlightenment and change.  I have hope.  Light. Honor. Peace. Joy. Namaste.

The dance

“The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, nor to worry about the future, but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly.” Buddha.  This moment is all that we have.  Did you smell a flower today, witness a sunset, feel the rain on your skin?  Did you smile at a child, help a stranger, give thanks for yourself?  Would you choose to extract more joy if you knew today were all that you had?  For my entire life, I have been on a treadmill, running mindlessly to the destination–knowing that once I reached that mythical place and point, I would find happiness, peace, joy, contentment…I would achieve bliss.  I negated sunsets, raindrops, lighting storms, all for the future moment in time when I would have arrived, and been more capable of enjoying these priceless aspects of life.  I have no doubt that God invented fireflys and hummingbirds for our wonderment, to enrich our journeys.  On hot, summer nights when we are tired from a long day at work, and we walk outside, exhausted and dejected, only to look up and watch the dance of the firefly as he purely and reverently dances in celebration of his existence in this moment.  We cannot delay joy, scheduling it into our calendars for some unknown date in the future.  Today may really be all that we have.  Today may be the end of our dance.  I lost two very dear people this last year.  One, was my grandfather, a great, loving, funny man.  He was an unforgettable example of living in the moment.  He loved birds, and built birdhouses and hung hummingbird feeders.  He used to watch them through binoculars, and teach me everything he knew about them.  He tended to his garden.  I recall helping him plant corn and roses, and watched him spend hours upon hours in his beloved yard.  He fished.  He rarely brought anything home, but watching him fish was like watching a man meet God…he was in awe, totally present and totally at peace.  I cannot think about him without aching and shedding a tear.  Right before I lost my hero, I lost a dear friend.  Larry.  If you do not know him, no explanation that I have could be adequate to describe his spirit.  Hilarious.  Inappropriate.  Kind.  Unbelievable.  Larry lived every day of his life like it was his last.  Having him as a friend was like being a part of a fraternity.  His spirit was so big that it encapsulated anyone in the vicinity.  You were better and more alive for having known him.  So many times Larry invited me to spend time with his crew, and I put it off for that elusive date and time when I would have arrived, when I would be ready and worthy for joy.  That date never came, and Larry came and went.  Nothing was wrong.  He was here one day and gone the next.  He lived a lifetime in 35 years, and he left those who love him to find happiness for ourselves, but he taught us with his life.  All I can do is carry the essence and examples of these two men in my being, and to give honor to their lives by living the truths that they taught me.  Take time for the simple, yet essential moments of life, and dance in the rain, being authentic to yourself, no matter how inappropriate or outrageous.  Never for a moment stop to care what others think yet live your life honoring and respecting those who share your journey.  Don’t blink for if you do, you will miss a moment that will never come around twice.  Encompass yourself wholly and honestly.  Own who you are and never apologize for who you were meant to be.  Speak your truth.  Live your truth.  Honor your truth.

Trust

Trust starts with us, it springs forth from within. It is not an ethereal, abstract idea. It is a choice, a decision, a way of life. By making trust dependent on an outside source, we are giving away our power. We cannot control the actions of others, but we have the option to trust ourselves, our judgement, and our ability to recover. Trust resides at the epicenter of life, it is infused into every encounter, every relationship, every choice, action and decision. Without it, we build walls around ourselves and rather than keep everyone else out, we are only keeping ourselves in. The best way to improve our ability to trust, is to act in truthful ways. I have learned that often, those with the most difficult time trusting are often those who feel guilty about their current or past actions. Again, in all things, we have the power to change. As Gandhi says, “be the change you wish to see in the world.” If you desire trusting relationships, act truthfully. Be truthful with yourself first and foremost, and that truth will emanate from within to those whom cross your path. Our souls crave love and support, and there will be times in our lives when we are the only ones who can give that to ourselves. We desire the connection we get when looking ourselves in the eyes of our reflection. We must get to a point in our life where we accept everything that we have created for ourselves, and move on peacefully from that, thankful for who it has made us. We need to trust that we will include the right people into our lives. Often in life, we get what we need rather than what we want. If a relationship or friendship goes “wrong,” trust that it was an experience that you needed for your evolution and progression; let it go, and give thanks for it, trusting that you were changed by it. Trust the dreams and desires of your heart. Life and people may try to convince you of their wrongness, but trust that which resides within you as your truth and rightness. Trust your judgement. Trust the choices you make, and the sound of your own voice. Don’t give your power away to others and let them speak your truth, only you can do that. Again, sometimes we get what we need before we get what we want. A “failed” decision or relationship, may have actually been a success according to the bigger picture. You just have to trust yourself, life, and the process of your evolution. Trust in your ability to recover. That if things seem to go “bad,” that it was in fact what you needed in some way, some form. You may have needed the learning experience, or the pain, the temporary joy, you cannot know or understand from your limited perspective. Quit analyzing. Just allow it to have shaped you. Trust your ability to continue to walk forward, walk tall, and walk authentically. Trust may be messy, but it is safe. You will be okay. It is an exciting and rewarding part of the journey. Trust. Hope. Peace. Respect.

balance

As I have said before, I have a tendency to exert force and make things happen.  Over the past few years, I have learned the value in letting things happen organically.  Now I am in the process of finding balance. I am realizing that life is the process of dancing and being danced.  I have made friends with peace, and I am learning from its wisdom.  I have learned that sometimes our expectations can limit our opportunities.   We can be so focused on what we want and believe we need, but fail to realize that timing is showing us a better way.  Sometimes something great falls apart to make room for something even better, and what appears to be rejection is just a bend in the road guiding us to bliss.  We only have a limited view of life.  There is so much more at work then we can even begin to realize.  Sometimes silence speaks the answer and stillness encompasses our power.  I strive to be and do many things, and often the striving leaves me weary.  In those moments when I can’t carry myself any further, the stillness whispers to let go, that God has something better for me than I can even imagine.  He can do more with my life if I just get out of my own way than I can ever force into reality.  I imagine Him sitting back and watching this boxing match where I am my own opponent.  Neither of us ever realizing that we are fighting our own essence, our own possibilities.  We are resisting the future and running from our past, or resisting our past and fighting our future.  We are afraid to let go of what might have been, and even more frightened of what could be.  We spend so much of our time fighting this illusory ghost, that we never stop to embrace ourselves, our grace, our potentiality.  We operate as frightened children afraid to trust our parents when we need to stop and learn to trust ourselves and cease to believe in the lower voices of our lesser selves.  There is nothing that we can’t do or be that is within our hearts.  We were all born with a realm of possibilities, a song in our heart.  A story- that to us is secretly so real, that we can taste it, feel it, live it-that we are too afraid to ever admit to anyone other than that place within ourselves, the knowing.  God created each of us down to every passion, dream, aptitude, hope, preference.  He knows what brings tears to our eyes, what makes our hearts soar, and if we only knew the power bestowed upon us, we would not waste one instant on doubt because we would be too busy bounding towards our quintessence, and inhabiting every moment of our lives fully and completely without the wasted efforts of striving or fearing.  “Every human being’s essential nature is perfect and faultless, but after years of immersion in the world we easily forget our roots and take on a counterfeit nature.”  Lao-tzu.  Why do we contribute to each others’ falseness?  You are doing no one a favor by trying to spare them heart ache or failure.  Instead, allow yourself to listen to that coveted yet hidden hope within another and encourage it, for the journey to claim our own joy produces that which we hope to find in the end of it all…ourselves.  And to share that journey with another is the greatest gift you can give and receive.  Joy. Hope. Passion. Fortuna.

Regrets

Growing up, I used to regret a lot of things…I strived to be perfect, and came down hard on myself when I fell short. I don’t know when the day came that changed my life forever. I realized that life isn’t about being perfect, but about doing the best that we can and enjoying the process. “You will be called upon to account for joys not taken.” Talmud Beautiful. There is a scripture in the bible that I remember off the top of my head. It says something to the affect that “men are that they might have joy.” Forgive my casual reference. It is true. God did not just create robots, he created creatures with hearts and souls. Our talents and passions are the vessel in which we communicate from our souls, it illustrates our deepest truth and being. God made a canvas, and we are all a necessary portion of that canvas. When I shut my eyes, I hear my own voice, and it is the voice of reality. I realize that I see the world differently, but I wouldn’t want to see it any other way. I am grateful for every experience and encounter that I have endured. I began a naive girl, but I have emerged a confident, peaceful individual. The only regrets I have are about the chances that I did not take. I would rather fail a million times than fail to try, to live, to chance just once. For that is why I get up in the morning and give thanks for my next breath. Do not regret the process of learning that you have lived, give thanks for the journey and leap every chance you get. Leap. Love. Laugh. Live.